April 18th, 2003


it's starting

I had a dream yesterday about missing my flight. Though I was confused about where I was going (Toronto? Amsterdam?), and for some reason I had two sets of tickets (Air Canada and British Airways), but it was 7:00pm on Saturday, and my flights had departed two and four hours ago respectively. I was going to call an airline and see what I could do, but I was disappointed because I was supposed to go to a party that night. Then I woke up. Anyway, the short of it is that my subconscious knows that I'm taking a flight soon, and is starting to give me trouble over it.

I had a meeting with member three of my committee yesterday. The good news is that he is willing to be on my committee, the bad news is that he doesn't feel my project is solid enough yet to take quals. To recap, my advisor thinks I am ready, my second member is cautiously optimistic, and my third member is sceptical. My own feeling is probably somewhere close to the middle. In any case, what's clear is that I have to do a lot of work in the near future and over the summer. And that requires some sort of change in my work ethic (I say, sitting on my couch at half past eleven, still in my bathrobe, wasting time online...)